I've given up on myself and what I believe.

I'm the monster I fought to keep hidden. Maybe some people have seen the change I've made in my life, maybe not.

Say goodbye to the guy you knew with what he called a heart.

Word of the day: Fracture

 a. The act or process of breaking. b. The condition of having been broken or ruptured

1. To cause to break: fracture a bone. 2. To disrupt or destroy as if by breaking: fractured the delicate balance of power.

Things are going really good so far and its only monday :).

Maybe someday I will learn how to not fucking care about some things and appreciate others.

I miss her. I will break my heart before breaking hers, so give it a try.

The shit that I gave up 6months ago has been re-introduced to my body last night. I knew it was going to happen and I didn't even try to stop it. I completely give up in everything. Theres no need for this and I don't need it. Watch carefully, into the dark tunnel I will make everyone walk through to find me. There is nothing that makes me happy anymore. The little things I looked forward to every day are gone or are faintly there that I can't feel the nodge or boost. A smile is nothing for me, just because someone smiles doesn't mean they are happy (cliche, yes) but its true.

I'm ready to cave in.

"Nothing will last in this life,
our time is spent constructing,
now you're perfecting a world... meant to sin.
Constrict your hands around me,
squeeze till I cannot breathe,
this air tastes dead inside me,
contribute to our plague.
Break all your promises,
tear down this steadfast wall,
restraints are useless here,
tasting salvation's near. "